God Bless you Balu, you deserve so much more.
Yes, this evil drug takes them over completely, it is like a mistress who they will always choose over their loved ones. You just have to see the other stories here from wives, girlfriends, mothers. It’s heartbreaking.
It will do you good to go to your home country and see your family.
Just take each day at a time . I pray daily which helps, my son has stopped drinking at the moment, maybe my prayers are being answered.
I wish you well Balu, whatever you choose to do, I will keep you in my prayers. Go easy on the sleeping tablets. Stay strong.
Lx