I’m so sorry to read this. Brings back memories of my actions in the past and the breakdown of what was my old marriage.
I’m 12 months clean tomorrow. Maybe I wasn’t willing to change for my ex god knows. We rarely talk now I just go pick the kids up when am supposed too and that’s that.
Everything you both said reasonanted with my old behaviour and it took my ex wife to leave me for good for me to get clean. Thankyou for sharing your stories and I hope and wish you find a solution but it’s never easy. It’s more of a mental battle and breaking the addiction cycle which isn’t easy at all because it’s the mental addiction that keeps you hooked.. the depression the anxiety etc but once you stop that dissipates after 8-10 weeks…