Hi Smile,
Welcome to the Forum, a great place to be able to share your story and get good advice and chat with people who are in similar situations.
I am the Mum of an addict (alcohol and cocaine), doing well at the moment, but have lived through hell with him in previous years.
Do you think your partner has ever stopped taking cocaine while you have been with him? I only ask because I know they are very clever at hiding things, and alcohol is usually a big trigger for taking cocaine.
I think you have done the right thing by not being with him at the moment, it’s not a life that I would wish on my worst enemy.
Have you noticed any other changes in behaviour over the years? Lies, money problems, chatting to other women, I’m afraid these usually go hand in hand with the addiction. Please don’t think I’m being harsh, but it’s better to be aware of these things, I certainly wish I had better advice some 12 years ago.
Keep in touch on here and read other threads on the Forum.
Take care.
Dx