Hi Cupcakes,
Thanks for sharing your story. I’m so sorry that you can’t talk to your friends and family about your husband’s alcohol problem. I’m glad that you are getting support on this forum but if you would like more help please contact us at Icarus Trust. We are a charity that offers help to people like yourself, going through a tough time due to addiction in the family. If you get in touch, one of our Family Friends would contact you. These are our experienced trained people who are good listeners and would understand what you are going through. Maybe that would help to make you feel less alone.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrst.org
All the best.