Hi Lily. Thanks for posting and sharing your story. I’, sad for you that your husband’s addiction has made you feel so alone and am glad that you have found some support on this forum. If you would like more help please contact us at Icarus Trust. We are a charity that offers support to people in your situation as we know how difficult this can be.
If you contact us one of our Family Friends will be in touch. They are our experienced trained people who would listen and try to help you find a way ahead. They will also let you know what other help is available for you and maybe your husband too.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrst.org
Good luck with everything.