Why do they do this going around in circles it’s awful my ex does this I have broken up with him as I can not accept the deceit and lies and mood swings and never having money to do anything or the energy he’s always in bed recovering from a coke benders he is the love of my life also but the effect it has had on me if beyond it.
I am trying to distance myself from him and his messaging. His paranoid outburst he can swing from 4 different emotions in one letter or text from hating me, to trying to manipulate me and making me feel sorry for him to lying to claiming undying love. I think he is mentally ill.
I think that coke is an escape from his breaking which is only making his mental state worse I fear he will never change never see the light of day with his coke abuse he will die and early death as his benders are extreme. It’s so sad it truly is.
We have to stay strong and look after ourselves and our own mental well being.
I try to stay focused on why I don’t want that life and always think I have to move forward everyday xx I am so sorry we are here in this situation x