Honestly I sit and wonder what I have done that’s so bad I am being out through this as well.
He just cannot see what he’s doing to himself or his family or me when I was with him.
It kills me everyday to walk away I am receiving council king to try to help me he doesn’t know this.
I find it so hard to not speak to him as I feel I am abandoning him and he is ill. But he abandoned me which was the last straw my sister who I am so close with last month has been diagnosed with cancer in her kidney I was devastated he lied and said he couldn’t come home and that he had stuff to do at work even though he was on leave (he’s in the military) and then went on a bender disappeared for 2.5 days the popped back up like nothing happened that was the last straw for me. He rattles on saying he will always be there for me when he does that all because of coke it’s evil stuff. He goes on social media chatting to women he told my mate that since we split 4 weeks ago he’s had one night stand which I don’t believe as he can’t even perform on the stuff so I doubt that but anyway he still went off with another women.
I am heartbroken but I swear I will not shed another tear over him he sure as hell isn’t shedding any over me. He contacts me ever time the day after a coke night because he’s feeling shut and sorry for himself that’s selfish he won’t leave me alone so I am finding it hard to move on omg it’s a mess so sorry we are all going through it xx