Hi ‘She’
Oh no….. you are not alone in wishing that, it certainly crossed my mind at times. It is because you feel helpless, and because you yourself cannot stop him using it, your only hope is that ‘something’ else stops him.
My husband is clean now, and has been for 17 months, its amazing! But it took a hole in his septum and my consistency of not accepting it for him to stop for good. He also has not drunk any alcohol for the same period of time. He did not have a drink problem, but the two went hand in hand, and drinking is certainly a trigger.
You are not alone sweetheart, if you would like any help with coping please ask, and we will help if we can. Also there are ex addicts on this site, and they will also help you from the other perspective.
I did not handle it well, and I have PTSD because of his drug use. Its getting better all the time, with time, but its so hard for everyone involved.
Sending love x