Hi Sal,
I’ve read a lot over the years about cocaine addiction, and I know it takes a strong willed person to stop. Cocaine is worse than Heroin in terms of its psychological hold on the addict. The physical withdrawal nothing like opioids, but psychologically it is harder to stop.
My husband gave up 17 months ago (after a number of failed attempts) this has been the longest time clean by probably a year…. and like I’ve mentioned before, his mindset has shifted. He did it without help, no rehab, no counsellor, just support from me and his child. But he had to want to give up. There was never anything I could say to stop him doing what he wanted, before the lightbulb moment, which was partly down to a hole inside his nose.
He does not associate with the old crew, he spends his time at work, at home, and some time seeing friends who do not use. Believe me, this reduced his circle of friends by probably 90%. He has not touched alcohol. He is 49, and I think he’s grown up (finally)
I feel so much empathy for people who are going through what I did, I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy.
Sending love x