Hi Dan,
Glad to hear you’re back working a programme and feeling less stressed.
Take comfort in knowing you’ve come a long way, you acknowledge your problems which is hard for most people.
Get to that meeting!
I’ve lost so many family at the hands of addiction, addiction is so cruel. My dad, grandad, 2 uncles and last year my sister-in-law, she overdosed on cocaine. I have another uncle who also has a drink problem. I don’t want to hear of another person who has lost their battle to drink and drugs!
My mate, he’s ok at the moment. He’s currently having therapy and I’ve notice significant improvements but he’s still using, on average now once a week/fortnightly. He was spiraling out of control, using a couple times of week. He’s still in denial and it’s as though he’s still waiting excuses to use just not much, he’s been using for over 5 years now.
It’s hard communicating with him, but recently I decided not to communicate no more with him via WhatsApp as I believe this to be one of his triggers along with other concerning matters.
It’s hard to understand what goes on in his head, he doesn’t fully open up and I think he’s scared too. There’s been times I’ve reacted negatively towards him out of frustration, however I’m learning now not to react. He shouldn’t be my concern but I’m one of these people I can’t just give up. Sounds silly, but if he knows I’m still around if he ever finds himself rock bottom or in need of genuine help I’ve not completely turned on him.
I can’t wait to hear the day when he’s been 6 weeks sober and still going strong. I hope that day comes sooner rather than later.