Hi Danman83,
I’m pretty new to this forum , but I’ve read your posts and how you have bravely helped others.
Don’t beat yourself up , the fact that you recovered enough to see the way cocaine had affected you mentally Is a breakthrough. My husband is now living in a van after me finally saying enough was enough . I’ve lived through the abuse you admitted to handing off and I’m afraid he’s still so far in that he can’t see it .
We are all here to spur you on , you have reclaimed your mind back and it’s strong enough now to fight back . You should be proud . Keep going we are all behind you .