Hi carlb
Wow well done for being sober for 18 months thats amazing. I read your post on the brink you have been through a lot. But getting sober and staying sober is amazing achievement.
I posted on this forum last year about my husband who has a cocaine addiction. He would mainly do it at weekends and any time he had off work if for a week or a few days he would be taking it. The addiction got worse because of lockdown last year he said it was because he couldn’t play golf or go to the gym. He has now been sober for 10 weeks. But the drugs and alcohol abuse I think has really damaged him mentally I have been reading up
About psychosis and I think he has it. Since his cocaine addiction got bad for 2 years he was taking it almost every weekend and drinking heavy . He has accused me everyday of cheating on him
He’s become obsessed that I am sleeping with other men when he’s at work. He’s angry and frustrated a lot and takes it out on me he bites on his jaw and is paranoid people are just out to get him or people are listening in on our conversations on the phone.
This has really affected me I can’t do anything right I feel
I’m on egg shells and everything depends on what mood he’s in.
One minute he’s fine we are all
Good then something will trigger him maybe a memory from
The past or something that winds him up he will just be so angry and take it out on me.
I’m so drained and sufferer anxiety from all this it’s affected my lower back I am now suffering with pain there I feel I can never put my self first as it’s all
to do with him. I’m proud and happy for him that he has been sober 10 weeks but I’m still
On edge and worry that he will release some times if he angry he will
Pick a fight with me and threaten I might as well be back on the powder just if I do something wrong. He never use to be like this but since the alcohol and drug abuse it’s just changed the way he is.
Will this get better will he ever recover or will
It always be like this? Did you suffer from any of this?
I just feel so sad that this is how our life is cocaine has ruined my life and my husbands so sad.
Thanks for taking the time to read my post