Hi Kate1
I can feel the sadness and anxiety in your words. It’s a horrible feeling, I have this feeling every month on his payday.
My son also gets his wages end of every month and I dread the weekends. This is the hardest time for them.
My son has been okay since his last relapse 3or 4 weeks ago. He is in his own flat. The deposit was paid by an inheritance, I was so relieved when he moved out over 3 years ago. We knew he was making bad choices but didn’t realise the extent of it all. The huge drug debt, and debt to loan companies.
We amalgamated all the debt, we paid it off, now he pays it back to us interest free every month.
You can never fully relax with the situation, I feel on edge a lot of the time , as does my husband .
He would never be able to move back here if he lost the house. It would affect me and my hubby’s health and well-being. So I just hope and pray every day that he gets the strength to fight his addiction and not give into temptation.
Perhaps if you spoke to one of the counsellors at Icarus trust they could put your mind at ease? I think that’s my next step if my son deteriorates.
Keep posting here as it helps to speak to others in similar situations.
Try to find time to switch off and enjoy the weekend.
Take care ❤
Lx