It’s amazing the difference getting things off your chest can make.. Even to complete strangers! So enjoy your meal tonight!
I’m glad to know that you have a supportive family. I know the feeling of thinking that I was pushing away friends by calling in tears all the time.. But I think I may have got it wrong, I’ve had great support in the last 10 days since I’ve left him and even since deciding that I’ll probably go back soon. So it sounds like you will get plenty of support from your family whatever you decide.