Hi Jamie00785,
Welcome to the Forum.
You’ve done the hardest part by sharing your story on here, I hope you feel better for getting it off your chest.
There is lots of great advice on the Forum if you go through all the different sections.
There are on line zoom meetings that you could do, you don’t have to say anything, just listen, it might be a great help.
You’ve made the first move, it’s little steps, but just try and carry on, one day at a time.
Take care.
Dx