Yes I can completely appreciate what your saying. I also got the tears and promises on a few occasions that I felt were somewhat the turning point for him, but it was all empty promises that I fell for, in some respect I believed ok maybe this time he realises and we will be able to build a future and work towards what I wanted, but no. He agreed on wanting all I want but actions never proved it. As you said he’s not in a position to quit. I’d imagine more will be lost before things change. If someone told me a year ago I’d go through this heartbreak I wouldn’t have believed them. Here was me thinking I was the one going crazy, the one that went for counselling because I felt I needed to for my sanity, the one the blame was pushed onto and the one that kept apologising even when it wasn’t my fault but in order to settle an argument. It has been such a draining experience I wouldn’t wish it on anyone.
