Thank you so much for your reply. It means alot to not feel alone when dealing with something like this. At the moment I’m trying to keep busy and trying to focus in work as with my job comes alot of responsibility so I can’t afford for anything to go wrong. Many many mornings over the last months I faced work exhausted and running on a few hours sleep over lying awake worried sick about what next was around the corner and how I was going to deal with it. My heart sinks at the thought of where he is going to end up and it’s a small rural community we are both from so word gets around and I’m so afraid of hearing something has happened him as he’s on a complete self destruction mode drinking excessively etc the last few weeks from what I hear. But Im trying to accept its no longer my responsibility, which is so difficult when I nearly lost myself the last few months trying to save him. It’s almost like a instant survival response, you don’t see how much your sinking. His belongings are bagged and ready to be collected which I informed him over 10 days ago but he still hasn’t made any contact to collect them, yet he’s aware it’s all ready. Many thanks for the support I really appreciate it all
