Hi,
Thanks for sharing your story. I’m glad that you are getting help from this forum. if you would like some more support please contact us at Icarus Trust. we are a charity that offers support to people like you who are dealing with an addictive partner. If you contact us one of our Family friends will talk with you. they are trained and very experienced and maybe talking with them will help you to move forward.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
Good luck.