Hi Stephie,
Thanks for posting. If you would like to contact us at Icarus Trust may be we could help with some of the things you are dealing with. We are a charity that offers support to people having to deal with the impact of an addictive partner. if you contact us you could talk with one of our trained and very experienced people.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
Good luck.