So good to hear from you! And I’m so glad you’re feeling better & life is good again for you now. What a journey ay, basically to hell & back – I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy. I’m in a great place, I’m so happy in my little home, everything is going great with the horses & I’m super busy all the time, living life for myself again (Out with friends, going on a beach holiday with the horses & the girls next week etc) & I look & feel fab so that really helps. I won’t lie, I still feel very bitter about the whole situation, he’s moved on to a new victim now & a few people are still buying in to his lies. I really don’t know what is going on with him on the drug front as I haven’t spoken to him for months – (although I do know he’s still in an awful amount of debt & burying his head in the sand on that front). Sometimes I feel like asking him to meet me so I can go over everything as I feel like I need that closure & some answers & to make him realise what he actually did but deep down I know it’s totally pointless & he’s created this bizzare reality for himself that it’s all been down to anxiety, depression & PTSD from crashing his truck (high as a kite) & he’s the victim in the whole sorry mess. He’ll never be ‘right’ again now & I know that, that’s all the closure I should need. I hate that he’s told so many lies about me & people will never really know how horrific it was & what I had to endure. I know I’ll never really get the answers I want or the truth so I have to let it go, I hate that it still has a hold over me but hopefully it will continue to fade in time. I’m still seeing the same guy I was last time we spoke, it’s very steady away which is all I’m really capable of for the foreseeable but he’s been a big help & it’s nice to know it hasn’t ruined my faith in the entire male species as I was worried I would turn very cold & bitter on that front. I’m so glad we made it out – when I read the stories on here of people who have been stuck in this nightmare for years I KNOW I made the right decision as quickly as I did xx
