Hi pixie , reading your post brought back memories of the earlier months and the chaos in my house hold and tormented mind I consumed that my son smoked weed day and night ,
I now have learned how to detach from wanting to control my sons smoking and usage wether it is in the morning , day , or night time as long as it is not inside my house ! They are the rules
I set my rules and then gave him his own choices to get stonned or get clean ! Iv had enough of the tormented conversations and arguments, Even my son laying on the bedroom floor receiving CPR a month ago has not stopped his addiction, so Iv let go
Only this morning he has been up all night running outside to smoke weed and is very very high ! I just calmly asked him if he was ok and made his bed up and smiled gave him a drink ! No shouting no abusive comments , he looked at me with confusion I have now after 7 years just accepted my son is an addict and I have no power to stop it , I now just love him more , lots of hugs and kisses
Step back and let go as it’s out of your hands and power to control the addiction of this substance, or your sons will to use
It is what it is and only god knows what’s in store for him ,
Take care hope things get better and you find peace
Lin