I just can’t believe how similar so many people’s experiences are!, mines just like yours, he called me one night, cried and begged, talked me through all our memories. He had found a hotel and planned to delete his contacts and go stay there for a week to get clean.
I saw him the next day and he deleted his numbers, he went out n bought weed and told me he would get high and sleep instead and wean himself off using that.
It ment nothing and he scrolled Facebook and picked all his contacts back up.
He would lay in bed off his head and talk constantly about how much he loved me, he’d get so emotional, but if I dare mention the time after listening to him for hours! (Because I had a job!) he’d loose the plot, just turn on me
He would wake my girls – teenagers!
And tell them all sorts of vile stuff about me, tell me how I must put myself about, tell me I was crazy and scream and shout my house down, next morning he would hide from them but still say it was me that provoked it all.
So many stories, none that are good
I’m really sorry your going through this too x