Isn’t it mad how our stories are very similar.
I told her whole family a month ago and she turned it round on me saying she’s only done it a few times to escape our toxic relationship.
It wasn’t toxic before she started doing coke . We were engaged , planning on having a baby etc…
Then the coke started . The lies , the manipulation, she would hit him , call me all the names under the sun , try to make it out it’s all my fault .
She turned up here last Monday and 3am in the morning after using . Wanted to sleep here so I could hold her and keep her safe . Crying she wants help …then in the morning it’s all forgotten about.
Sad as it seems I don’t want to move on because I still love her very much and I’m praying that she turns back into the girl I fell in love with .
But I don’t know if that will ever happen . As coke takes there soul and there values and they will put that first over everything .
Until they are high then they realize how bad they have been and want to change . But when it wears off they are the same vile person again and all they are interested in is getting some more .
She told me she loved me last night , first time in ages , but I think she just said it to try and make me feel better as she knows how much she’s hurting me.
I’m also so sorry for what your going through . Coke is the most evil drug on the planet .