I guess it’s a very complicated and long story of how I got here. I know that he’s manipulating and using me, bc that’s what addicts do. But I know he also loves me, it just so happens that he depends on me.
The easy answer is, I don’t leave because I really am in love with him.
I am not a user, I am pregnant. I give drugs a pass bc I know it’s something that I can work on and support him through. Until one day he can be completely clean. But if he’s cheating, the that’s a different story. Thennid have to leave the relationship. But since there is a correlation between using cocaine and behaviors of infidelity, I can work through that with him too. That’s why I am here asking people wether cocaine really is the culprit. Or how much is it contributing to the behavior?
If the answer is, it doesn’t make you solicit sex from random strangers then .. …..that’s when I can move on.