Hiya,
I couldn’t not write something back after reading your post . I’m currently going through similar with my partner .
What I’ve learned is , they will choose coke over me , you , kids , money for food etc….
The grip of cocaine is somthing really sent from the devil himself .
My advice to you is to get out now . As fast as you can . I am not an addict buy I am a man . No man deservers any woman , especially with a baby . To stick by someone like that . He needs to hit rock bottom to change .
Your words don’t mean a thing to him , just like his words shouldn’t mean a thing to you . Just look at his actions .
Ask your self this , when your little baby grows up . Would you want them to stay in a relationship like this ?
So get out as fast as you can . Don’t listen to the I’ll change , I’ll stop , I’ll delete all the drug dealers number etc….it’s just words that you want to here . But the grip of the addiction that’s hes currently in will take years and professional help to get anywhere near to the person you remember .
If you leaving is his rock bottom then it will make him better . If not at least you know it wasn’t ment to be .
But enjoy your life with your little baby . That’s no life or environment for a little baby ..
I wish you the best of luck , buy honestly get out now or you will be stuck in this loop for years.
You will threaten to leave , he will say he’s gonna stop , he promises this time is different.
Then you catch him again , you threaten to leave and this is the cycle with and addict .
Take care of yourself and your baby . That’s all you have to do