Sorry to hear this. Well there’s the lies and manipulation! My ex pretended he was going to have an early night and stay at my dad’s to get a good night sleep for work, but would end up using. I dont understand why she has phoned the rehab clinic? Is this something she does when using coke. Is it a guilt thing where she over thinks when high wanting help but then when she crashes she’s not interested.
The anger is part of the come down. I would say don’t take it personally but you do. Your the person that she sees in her way when she comes round from the drug. Basically she can’t be bothered with the lecture or to discuss what’s happened so she snaps instead. I would say your lucky to still be getting a reaction. It doesn’t feel that way at the time, but when they stop reacting you know then they are completely consumed and just don’t care about anything anymore.
It is an awful rollercoaster to be on. Up and down, highs and lows, constantly questioning things in your head. Some days I have felt mentally drained through it where I have had no motivation whatsoever.
You will never really understand an addict and what goes on in their mind. I have spent years questioning things and still no real answers.
You need to look after yourself, put yourself first, you can’t help someone who doesn’t want help. I spent years trying to make my ex better through trying to help and support him and in the end I’ve lost myself whilst making myself ill. Don’t let that happen to you. Stay strong