Thank you!!
My heart literally hurts,
I get churned up when I see him, I miss him!
I no he’s not the same and I no I’m hurting because I’m the nice one, I just look back and wish I’d been able to lead him down a different path, we had our whole lives mapped out and I really thought this time I’d found my soulmate….well hi is my soulmate, he’s just being poisoned by that crap.
I still can’t imagine a life without him,
In amongst all this, the last time he had a breakdown, he was crying and screaming at me down the phone because after a lovely day with me he drove home and instantly picked up his mate and a ticket, I obviously wasn’t impressed, anyway that night he was punching walls, and completely crazy, I could hear his mum in the background begging him to calm down, I messaged this friend that night and told him he needed to pack that crap in, I told him that if it doesn’t kill him it’ll kill his mum through the stress, I just hope he read that text and I hope it sunk in just a little bit because
It’s true.
I wish there was a medicine that would stop all these effects, that would bring them back xx