It’s so hard to know what to think when he tells me “he doesn’t know the last time he even did it” but he’s now come out and admitted it was a problem for at least all of April/may. And in those months when I asked him about it he hadn’t used it since the beginning of April… so your now admitting (whether he believes it or not) that you lied then about it. How am I supposed to believe you now? He just kept saying “it was never going to work, there was no fixing our marriage”. It seems to me that he only started feeling that way when the coke came… we didn’t even fight or anything… he said he didn’t think we were “sexually compatible”… I said were you planning on leaving me whilst not having an income this entire year and draining our account? He was appalled i would even ask that as no he wasn’t… so you just decided to leave me whilst on your admitted coke binge? I’m so sad he is this way now. And he justifies moving on as “he deserves to be happy” like our marriage was complete torture or something. I was happy every moment of our marriage until the coke came along. Please someone tell me I’m not crazy and this is the stupid drug as he won’t ever admit it and just blames our marriage which was everything to me :’(
