Its the hardest position to be in, all sorts will be going through your head.
Does he hate me?
Why is he like this?
I just want him to be normal again
I’m scared of my own husband
How should I be, how should I act/react?
One day one of his mates (I am good friends with the wife) told him he was a ‘poor husband and a bad father’ well, that was 5 years ago, and my husband has not spoken to him since. He was both those things, but someone telling him really made him angry.
I will never understand why they cannot see what EVERYONE else can. (everyone except other coke heads!) And because they’re not spaced out or comatose or falling all over the place, I think its even harder for us to grasp why they are so different toward us. I think you need to think of his brain as it having a meltdown, but you cannot see it, its not as visible as other addictions, they can easily pretend.
I dont know what your home situation is, I can’t remember, but get the hell out of this, and don’t look back. xx