Hey
Sorry, managed to go on my own downer for a while,
Every good day n I think I’ve got a grip n then it all turns again!
I did write a reply but for some reason they wouldn’t let me post it? Who knows why, I reread it n it had nothing i could see wrong?
Anyway that just got to me as well so I’ve just hidden away.
Hope your still feeling a little more positive!
So I saw him last Tuesday, I’d been keeping myself to myself and he called, very low
I asked if he wanted to see me n where he would usually be a bit stroppy this time he just said yes.
We went out, supposed to be for coffee but he talked us into a drink at a pub.
All went really nice and we both let our guards down n had a laugh.
It was nice, he asked to spent Saturday with me but come Friday night and his lift in mood because we were talking, he went to see this friend of his, ended up staying up all night, didn’t sleep until lunchtime Saturday and wasted the whole day.
We have spoken on the phone, he begged me to forgive him and said we would catch up tomorrow and have another date where we can try n build some bridges….
Well until last night when he calls to say he’s now invited some bloke to come join us so they can play darts….
I dunno, I give up, I no how the nights gonna end, if I’m upset I’ll be made to look like an idiot, if I join in with the laughs he’s gonna think it’s okay, he’s not seen our baby for weeks…and is it so bad that I think he needs to take me seriously because I don’t look at him and think he’s even my other half right now.
My trust has gone because he can’t even put me first once yet I’m here when he’s at rock bottom!.
I dunno, he’s stupid!
So I’m waiting for his happy messages to start today as he thinks I’m really happy about what he’s arranged for tomorrow when I’m really not in the mood.
Lol my last message was so much more positive, they should have left it up! Xx