Hi there, really sorry to read your story. Cocaine ruins family’s a hell of a lot aswell. I’m something like 76 days clean today from coke. And I got 4mth clean before that.
My ex kicked me out May 5th because I relapsed and said some horrible things. We get on now and it was a toxic relationship anyway.
I can see how much you love your husband and watching him slip away to this deadly disease, and addiction. It’s horrible how it grips certain people. I joined ca anonymous and its helped me so much. I recommend he join ASAP if he hasn’t.
I don’t know the ins and out of his addiction and your relationship, but what I do know is time is a great healer. Spend it with people that love and care about you. Family members if you can. Do things with your kids and make good memories. Talk to get things off your chest as well. I meditate and that helps.
None of this was your fault aswell. We as addicts make our own choices.
Your husband needs to want to quit for himself and cut everything off to do with cocaine. Does he want to stop?
But just think of your self now and your mental health. Hope this helps. Feel free to ask me anything.