Hiya herbie, I hope your OK.
Really sorry to hear your situation. It’s must be horrible for you. None of his drinking is your fault for a start.
You deserve better than this and if he is not prepared to get help then you need to look up other options. You don’t need or deserve this mental and verbal abuse from him.
I don’t know your situation, like are u married, is it your home aswell ect.. And I know how hard it is financially being on your own.
So if you are married and own the home. Can you not threaten him with divorce and sell up and go your own way ect..
If you don’t own it and have no money ect.. Just try and save up in the mean time. But I don’t know your situation so I’d do what’s best for you
And your mental health should be at the very top. And you need to be happy, and pardon my French.. you should not put up with his shit any longer. ❤️