Thanks for your reply Dan.
Is it true that the drug completely takes over your mind. He seems to miss days and just shows no true feeling or emotion anymore. All he does is tell lies. He hasn’t had any clean time for a long while. The most he has went in the last year is probably a week – 10 days and that’s only been a few times.
He was a no show yesterday. Then I bumped into him earlier today and he was like “are you OK pet”. Like everything was normal. However, at times I do see a slight lowness in him if that makes sense.
Well done on your clean time. I can see you are trying really hard and I bet your ex is proud of your commitment.
In regards to finding it hard to let go. Do you think that’s because there is a tiny bit of his true self still there? Or is it just greed wants to do what he wants with who he wants whilst trying to keep me around.
He won’t admit to going with other woman apart from the cheating which went on for a good few months with the same girl when he was high. Even now when we are not together he still denies being with anyone.
In terms of sex I don’t think he would initiate anything. I think he would more or less avoid it. Not sure if its because of the missuse of the drug and he only has interest in it when he is using. Its like all feelings are dulled unless he is high.
Sorry last question- When you are in recovery do your emotions etc start to come back? If so how long does this take?