Kate i am so sorry for your loss, I can’t believe you have had to go through this. No mother should see this happen. I hope you are getting enough support off family❤️❤️.
You did make the right decision Kate in support because if it was tough love and this happend you would never of forgiven your self. Because that’s how parents think on tough decisions. But u made the right decision and was there for him as a mother should be.
When the coke is wearing off that’s when the depression kicks in and suicidal thoughts. I’m not gonna lie it’s not nice you just feel really down, and there is no ill feelings towards parents or anything so plz don’t think for a minute he will be thinking this. It’s just feelings of sick of everything but it’s multiplied because of the coke.
I don’t know if you know how it works but I’ll explain. So your brain produces dopamine, these are they happy thoughts, we have them when we go swimming, or talk to friends, or something fun.. But when we use coke it literally uses them all up, hence the big rush of feeling good. But when the coke has gone, your brain needs to produce more dopamine but can take a few days… So this is when u come crashing down and everything is just negative. That’s the best way I can describe it.
I don’t know his situation, but he might of been on a bad come down and done this. But I don’t know the full situation. My friend did the same back in May. It ruins people’s life’s this stuff. I was gutted to hear about him.
Quite a few people I know have this year sadly passed away from coke this year.
Also the steroids would not of helped they mess with your emotions so much and would of contributed to this. It will help me so much this what you have told me, and I will pass this message on. Try and stay here as well and share your story as well you will help so many parents and addicts in your situation Kate. But that’s up to you. There is a good book I read, called.. Mum can you lend me 20quid.. A woman lost her son through heroin and its about that and coming to terms. She does alot of charity work now aswell.
Also Kate I just want to say, as parents we think is it our fault? Could I have done something different? I don’t know what you are thinking. But you did the best you could. When this drug gets you it’s hard to get out of, and the people we associate it with.
My mum checks on me every day because she is worried. So I’ll cherish my moments more now.
I am always here Kate if you want to talk, I am so sorry for what you have gone through. I’m sure he is still with you looking out for you ❤️stay strong❤️ xxx