Thanks Coco, and sorry, I expect I made everything sound a bit too dramatic last message. Thank you for your concern, my bf isn’t the guy to hit a girl, he’s the guy to hit the guy who hit the girl. I do forget that sometimes when I see him in a rage and it had all been because of pain, which we are dealing with.
Do you think your bf’s mind will get better over time? I read somewhere that cocaine is detectable even after 2 years. I don’t know what it is for other drugs, but that says to me maybe he just needs more time for his mind to improve. For your sake, I hope that’s the case.
I do tend to be pretty balanced, but lately I’ve been a bit low if I’m honest. As I think I said before, I’ve stopped trying to get him to quit, I’ve stopped expecting anything from him whatsoever tbh. I suppose that me focusing on how good our life has been/can be again was keeping me going. I’m trying to care about myself a bit more instead.
Have you been looking after yourself and managed to get a break this summer? I hope so xx