Hi Jasminnie, welcome to the forum. So sorry to hear that you are going through this nightmare which is addiction- with your son.
Unfortunately I don’t have all the answers but I wanted you to know that there’s no need to feel alone.
My son is 28 and has alcohol and cocaine addictions. He is currently in early recovery and i know every day is a battle for him.
He started dabbling at 14 and progressed to cocaine triggered by alcohol. I have been through the aggressive behaviour, the escalating debt, us being blamed for all his issues etc.
I usually post on the Theresa thread, there are several of us mums all with sons with addictions. Its so difficult to give advice as every person with addiction needs a different approach. In my opinion there needs to be a balance of the fact that he needs your unconditional love, but you need to take care of your own mental health too.
The forum has a homepage with support and the Icarus trust posts here too. There are people in recovery here, also offering support and advice from a different perspective.
Unfortunately it has to be his decision to stop and change his lifestyle. When this happens, its easier to support them I’ve found.
The AA and CA offer great support it’s been the only thing that’s worked for my son so far.
Please take care of yourself, find time for you.
Stay in touch here.
Sending hugs
Lx