Hey you! ????
I’m so glad to hear your world is going better!! I’ve never been to margate! It sounds like a laugh, especially for kids…
And that he’s trying to get clean by himself! It’s like he can actually see where he wants to be and what that stuff is doing! I’m really happy for you!!
So yeah my house check went well, I had the whole house fit for a visit from the queen ???? I’d jet washed his van and car that are sat rotting on my drive, fixed so many little bits n had to stand n listen to him take all the credit cos he’s supposed to live here!! he turned up late and lied, told my landlord he was working nights! Nope just evenings…
He said to me the night before,
“I’m not going to get on it! Please have some faith!” And then at lunchtime, half hour before he should be here he calls and I ask if he had any sleep n his answer was no not really, but he has a headache, his eyes!! Bloodshot, his excuse was his eye drops made them sore!!! He was burning up while talking to me! It’s ridiculous that he still lies, it’s like he believes what he says to me!!
Anyway yeah my landlord was singing his praise, such good work but it was all mine!!!
Then he stayed to play with baby but after half hour he decided he was hungry so we went out so he could buy himself food, he instantly got angry that I sat in the back with baby cos he has some problem with it, he’s rather she scream the car down n I sit up front with him!! so within 5 minutes he was angry and I asked to come home….
He ruins every day that I see him! Honestly! It’s anger or jealousy or just nasty….
Anyway I stayed home last night, went out for a long walk with my daughter n put the world to rights as we walked…
He messaged and did the whole “I love you, please let’s make it work” so I told him we rnt happy so either sort it out or it’s over…I don’t think for a second he will change but I am which is the biggest and best thing
Anyway yeah, he’s been at work all day so I got out the house again, I’m gonna try and pick myself up and get some sort of life in place, even if it is just getting out with the lids it’s better than sitting at home by myself.
Hope your still going well!! Xx