Hiya,
I’m alright ta,
Ah well it sounds like it was a nice time, my kids love arcades too!
The 2p machines ❤️ ????
Brighton’s nearest to me, not been down there for a while though,
Hope yours gets himself together n bounces back for you, it’s such a struggle for them I guess, the road back to us seems so long and it’s so easy to drop back off n back to bad habits. Don’t think mines gonna change.
So I called his mum on Monday for a chat while he was at work, to check in n see she was okay and to see how he had been.
I was honest n told her I was ready to call it a day if he kept speaking to me the way he did, we went over all sorts and she admitted that she’s been steering clear of him too, staying away over night and just choosing not to talk to him to save having to go through his arguments.
She’s asked if I think he’s taking anything as she can clearly see a difference, I can’t say really as I’ve tried before and she wouldn’t accept it so I just told her the signs to look for, I know she knows deep down.
I love her to bits n she shouldn’t have to listen to her son say the things he does, same as me really.
I also found out he has seen his ‘friend’ and just not told me, his mum let slip that he was stupid for having this bloke back round the house again, she said his behavior dropped straight away and I no that they only ever see each other and do that rubbish. I sorta feel let down by that but I can’t tell him I no without dropping her in it.
Anyway I saw him Tuesday,
He was nice to me for once, I called it short n came home to my girls and as always he got straight on it…
I don’t no if he’s ever gonna have the strength to give it up, I’m just glad that I can walk away and come home.
I will say that I don’t no how I feel about getting close to him again, I was sorta glad to get my taxi when I did because he was quite drunk and I didn’t feel comfortable around him…it’s like I’ve moved on a bit now I dunno, I guess I can’t see him ever being anything other than chasing a high and I want him to love me
It makes me a bit anxious that he seems to think we can find a away to stay together and him still use it
How olds your little one now? Does he manage when he has her?
I told mines mum that I’m glad he’s not been interested cos I just don’t trust him fully, he hasn’t got that attention. My life revolves around her n my others, he gets distracted by anything lol
Take care x