Really sorry to hear how badly you’ve been treated and used by your ex partner. I am glad to hear that you are getting the support of a therapist but if you would like any further support, perhaps an understanding listening ear, please contact us at Icarus Trust. We are a charity that provides support for people dealing with addiction in their family and have trained and experienced people you could talk with.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
All the best to you.