[rubyblue]

Thank you so much for your response. I am so glad I found this forum where I can openly and honestly share my story. Family and friends tend to be biased and judgemental so I like getting opinions from neutral territory. I definitely felt like he was living a double life, but it took me a long time to catch him in all his lies. It does hurt because I did love him, but I know I am better off without him. He said I was number one, but drugs will always be number one in his life even though he will never admit that. Thanks again and take care as well.