So its been 18mths or over since my hubby stopped coke and weed. So proud. He’s come back into family life, paid debts etc but now I feel a huge void where I used to just feel love! Anyone else feel that? The trust went and the fact he believed his narcissistic dealer over me for several years has left me empty. I love him, care for him and am proud he’s knocked on head. He’s more respectful, but has put me as his saviour. I can’t say I’m in love as I had a parallel life whilst he was using and I’m now seeing I may be happier without? He’s drinking like a fish most days to make up for other stuff. He’s not emotionally available and sex is gar less frequent now he’s off coke. How have you all found the aftermath? It’s not the happy ever after I hoped for tbh!
