Hi – no one has responded to you and I feel really sorry about this. I think you may have PTSD and that is why you feel that alcohol will lead to something more dangerous. I think if you try (and I know it’s hard because my partner died of alcoholism) not to worry when he is drinking – it won’t become an issue. It is basically the law of attraction….I think.
Also, just want to say – there are many people on here with more experience than me who could have responded to your message, but it seems to sometimes be a ‘no mans land’. You reach out for help and no one responds, not sure why that is. Seems pointless having a forum when people are clearly suffering.