Hi
I’m so sorry not to have replied to you before now. I’m so sorry to read your post and see how badly you are still affected by your ex partner’s alcoholism. I wonder if you have mentioned how you are feeling to your doctor as it would appear that you could do with some professional help.
I work for a charity called Icarus Trust that offers support to people dealing with the affects of addiction in their family. If you get in touch one of our specially trained and experienced Family Friends would contact you and let you know what support we could give you.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
All the best to you.