Hi there, the reason that I took my Son away from his father ( who was an alcoholic), was that I didn’t want my late husband doing to my Son, what he was doing to me.
That is, holding him there saying that it’s love, which is what he did to me for five years. It was sucking the life out of me and I know that I would have become very ill and I had to be ok to be there as a Mother for my Son. So I chose my Son over my husband as he was an innocent child. He is now 15 and was never affected by his father’s behaviour because I left when he was 5 and my husband died eventually from alcohol in 2012.
Now I see you, it’s so sad for you that you’re in this position. You say that their addiction continues to rule..these words haunt me. You must see that you are entitled to live your own life without this. You are not responsible for her, on the contrary, she was supposed to be responsible for you! Even though you are now 25, I can understand the suffering that you have been through, only too well, because I lived it.
My advice is leave…move as far away as you can, move in with friends or a partner ( make sure that they are normal! ) and don’t tell her where you’re going. Save yourself, no one will blame you. She is the person gravely at fault here. I just hope you get the courage to leave and if anything happens to her, then like me and my husband’s family did when he died, we just all felt a massive sense of relief and the fact that my husband was also now free of the torture of addiction. So don’t worry about the future, you must block it out, leave and live your own life!!