I’m so sorry for the pain you are in with your daughter. Its really hard when they have had good jobs and a career, we can make no sense of them throwing it all away.
You’ve done so much for your daughter but you have to prioritise yourself, because the addiction is much stronger than you are. We don’t see it in our own lives, it’s only when we read the stories of others that we see the reality of how big the battle is and how small we are when it comes to standing between our children and their addiction. I had the rule of no heroin in the house until late winter, and then when my son admitted he had relapsed but ‘just needed time’ – and it was lockdown … I gave him time and here we are about 9 months on, with no sign of being able to stop again although he is doing better than he was.
Do you and your daughter live under the same roof? Its very hard when there is no relief or other people coming in.
If you feel able, please phone Addaction, they will listen and help you. If you have the strength. I would try and get out of the house even if its just to go for a walk or to sit in a local library and collect your thoughts.
I know it feels very dark at the moment, but you are still the same person that had a career and responsibilities. There is a life out there for you, please put yourself first.