Thank you for sharing. I’m sorry that your partner’s cocaine addiction is making things so difficult for you. If you would like to talk with someone who would understand what you are going through, please contact us at Icarus Trust. We are a charity that offers help and support to people like you who are dealing with addiction in their family. We have specially trained people we call Family Friends who you could speak with if you get in touch. Talking with one of them may help you to work out what to do next.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
All the best to you.