Bless you thanks for taking the time to reply I’m so sorry that you are going through this horrible experience too, but at least your husband is trying now that’s good 🙂 I totally understand though once the trust is broken it’s so so hard to trust again.
I feel like he wants to change but just can’t seem to do it it takes over there lives it’s so awful what it does to people.
The worst thing is loving the person you once knew and that person doesn’t seem to be there anymore it’s like your constantly chasing the person you fell in love with but can’t get it back sorry I hope that makes sense it’s just hard to explain it really is.
Such a waste of a life, yes I really need to break free from this awful mess but just so hard when your in it, I think I actually need help professionally I think I’m going mad some days and it’s like we keep it all bottled up I wouldn’t be able to talk to friends & family about this as they would go mad with what I’m putting up with.
Any way sorry to waffle on just feels good to be able to talk and get it out.
I really do wish you and your husband all the best for the future in his recovery and hopefully he can prove this to you both lots of love sent your way too xxx