Hi Mary,
Thank you for sharing your story. I am glad you have found support on this forum and you sound as if you found a way ahead sad though it is. If you would like some more support please contact us at Icarus Trust. We are a charity that offers help to people like yourself dealing with addiction in their family. One of our trained and experienced Family Friends would talk with you if you get in touch, which may be helpful to you.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org