I feel the exact same way. I found out my husband was hiding his cocaine use from me about 6 months ago. It got out of control and he stopped coming home and left me said the same thing – not to do with the coke he was just unhappy. Before the cocaine use we were extremely happy. They will never own up to anything or take accountability nothing is their fault. I’m so sorry. I know it’s so confusing and hurtful. I’ve found a therapist which has been very helpful and have also had to go as far as start anxiety medication. It is a whole grieving process. Just ask yourself is this the life for me the life of cocaine and lies and I’m sure it’s not. Just sad it has to be this way for us the partners. Just know there’s lots of us who understand. This website is so helpful. I also suggest the Love Over Addiction podcast. This is our chance to grow. Xo
