My bf has upped his use again. Massively. We’ve almost come full circle is how it feels. He’s been managing on a bit everyday, or even skipping a few days here and there, but he has more money again, it’s dark and cold and he’s full on now smoking crack all night and sleeping all day and there doesn’t seem to be anything I can do.
We’ve had a few big arguments, he’s been either really depressed or really high.
I’ve had a few family issues going on, I’ve needed his support, but he hasn’t been there for me at all. Even though on several occasions I’ve asked for some strength from him and he’s just so deep into this crack use hole that it’s neither here nor there to him.
I’m not sure what to do for the best, I’m not sure his body will take much more of this. I’m not sure I can take much more of this. Given his age and the way he’s upped his use, I’m back to wondering if he’ll suffer some serious health issue, and if he understands or even cares what he’s doing to both himself and to me.
I’ve actually never felt so alone than I do right now. Alone and powerless.